My dad is finally out of jail and he called. I honestly think that he has some sort of tracking device that lets him know when I'm teetering on the verge of writing him off. I had JUST made my mind up to my mother that I was going to be finished with him because I thought he had ignored Athena's birthday, and the last time that we talked it was an incredibly nasty fight. He seemed quite calm now that the jail time is behind him and a very, very nice card came in the mail for Athena. He was also telling me about how well he's been taking care of my brother, and that almost always redeems him in my eyes. He's selling the house and thinking about taking off for Costa Rica for "work". Whatever. Send me some money from the proceeds of the house as payment for dealing with you.
What's it like to have a father that was there for dinner every night and was never investigated by the FBI? I'd like to live vicariously for a moment.
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i'm with you on this one...never really had the quintessential father/family life myself. my dad has done some pretty shady things too.
I'm sorry that you're going back and forth with this. It's so so hard on the emotions to be pushed and pulled all over the place. I hope that you can make a decision that you are comfortable and happy with!
Although I had a dad that came home every night at 5:30 for dinner, in the long run that really didn't matter. I think all girls yearn for their fathers love, wether it be young or as an adult.
I asked myself a very similar question Friday when I had to call my dad at a bar (as that is the only way to reach him) to tell him some pretty important news.
At first I thought it was funny. But then it brought back some sh*tty memories. Like how I had the number to every bar in a 50-mile radius of our home memorized by the time I was 8.
I'm still not sure how to have a relationship with him. There've been so many lows; but like you said, it's those occasional highs that change things - for awhile. Good luck. You're definitely not alone.
I always had a good relationship with my dad...he lost his dad when he was 25, so I think that he really wanted to have that father-son relationship in a way that he didn't get from his dad. We atill hang out all the time...as do he and my sister, and when I got married last year, he was my best man. When I asked him to stand up for me he got all chocked up and said "y-y-y-yes." I'm not all that spontaniously emotional, but when I saw his reaction, I had to look away.
Thank you. a. I KNOW EXACTLY what you mean.
Hurley, I can't even tell you how AWESOME that is. It's freakin' adorable actually. You and your sister are beyond lucky. Ms. Bee will have the same relationship I'm sure. Louis is just wonderful with her and does SO many things with her that I never got to do.
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