The other day I felt like I needed to breathe...to get out... so I scooped up Athena and we just drove. We drove to the country, which is quite out of the ordinary for me. I guess city girls need wide open spaces from time to time as well. Who knew? It was so incredibly relaxing and meditative. I felt more calm and clear than I can ever remember. Athena just looked around and periodically smiled at me in the rear view mirror before drifting off to sleep.
I think I am officially on a spiritual quest. I've been contemplating a lot my need for a spiritual guide of some sort. The first time that thought popped into my head my subconscious accused me of being a poser. It thinks that I only got this idea because of Oprah. I don't feel the need to explain myself to that judgemental be-otch, so I think I'm going to start. We all know I'm a bit wound up. What with all the anxiety and OCD issues, etc. But that is not to say that I am not incredibly grateful for my life with Athena right now. I just want to feel good with the world. Good with the universe. Good with God. So forgive me if my blog starts following me on this quest and you find it boring. I'll still love you guys anyway.
5 comments:
I hope that you are able to find that peace that you are looking forward!
Your self-exploration is not enough to turn me off of reading your blog!! Infact, it could be rather interesting ;) I hope you find what it is that you are looking for
that picture of Athena is quite sweet, and a meditative drive sounds to be just the thing you needed! keep us posted.
Driving around for no reason on a beautiful day is a really great way to unwind.
Good for you. Me and God are BFFs and it's been a VERY good thing for me. I wish you peace and calm and contentedness.
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