Oh my gosh, thank you God.

I'm sitting here watching cartoons with Athena exhausted. She's been getting me up multiple times a night to tell me either she's thirsty, she needs to hug, or that she's a dinosaur.

I'm tired.

I've been HORRIFIED of having an anti-sleep toddler who sleeps with me and a newborn. Seriously, like panic attack, crying every day to my mom horrified.

All of a sudden I just pictured sitting here with Athena AND Zofia and I was hit with the overwhelming sense of calm. I've been waiting for this. Praying for this.

Now maybe I'll accept the fact that I CAN do this.