Monday, November 28, 2011

Time to be honest about the green-eyed monster dwelling in my belly.

Going into NaBloPoMo this year I was quite apprehensive. I've been having a rough go with the old blog for a while. I took many a hiatus and just never felt like I found my way. I felt like my blog had no "purpose" and I just couldn't write anything of substance or quality. Also? I was having some deep blogger-envy. All of my favorite blogs that I have been reading for years began torturing me. They were so good! So many people kept coming back! Why can't I be like them?

Because I'm not them.

I don't have to fit into one box. If I write about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and mental illness one day, then post a cute picture of my girls the next, that's OK! That's me, that's my life, and the people that mean the most to me keep coming back to read and offer support. I don't need to look at stats or count comments. I need to be grateful for the people I have crossed paths with because of this blog and for the voice that BlogHer has given me. Thanks to those that convinced to participate in NaBloPoMo. I don't think I would have come to these realizations without it.

2 more days to go! Thank you all for hanging out at Athena Bee's with me for so long.


the grumbles said...

you aren't the only one, which is part of the reason i love nablopomo. i too get that "must be really awesome" "how the hell do they do that" pressure. i think we all do. all we can do is be ourselves though.

Ky • said...

I will always read your blog. I love it. It makes me feel more connected to you. Keep writing. I'm listening.

Sarah said...

I think at some point, every writer deals with that. I'm dealing with that too! Everyone is rocking nablopomo and I'm ... silent. But that's okay because I think I will have a lot to say and/or show for December. Like life, writing comes in waves.

Keep writing.

Nadja said...

You 3 mean a lot to me. Thanks for being here with me.

wrestling kitties said...

I read your blog because it is who YOU are. No bullshit, no trying to be something/someone you are not...just you.

And that is why I will keep reading no matter what!

Wendy said...

I love that your blog isn't focused on one topic. It's about life and life is crazy!

I've enjoyed reading your blog during November!